Dear Alice

Hey Alice wassup!!!!!!! Im here at my house waiting and waiting and waiting for something interesting happens.

Want to know the truth im feeling weird this days and you know which 2 are not interrupting my thoughts lately except when like a guy comes around or they want to make me feel bad.

I don't have a purpose for this entry, I just wanted to talk to somebody and you were not online so this is my way to talk jejeje.

For some reason there are strange feelings again going though my brain, maybe happiness for going back to school and maybe scared because I haven't read the books jejeje.

Hope to see you soon Alice, we need to plan watching a movie soon or just hang out jejejeje.

XOXO

ANGIE

July the 29 of 2010 1:10 PM

Hey guys. Ive been in a party all day, but not like party party. I have been changing my clothes ten thousand times, I had make up on, I started Singing my favorite music while I was combing my hair in different styles.

Life can be a party if you want it to be maybe that is what I have been missing this summer, maybe I should have had more fun here at home instead of getting bored all vacations doing nothing.

Sometimes life can look boring but a as beauty you just need to make it work so you are never bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 27 of 2010 6:20 PM

Life can be such a mess when you talk about beauty, I went to take a picture at the mall today for my parents I discovered how ugly I am in the outside I felt bad for the whole day when suddenly it hit me.

Why is beauty so overrated, why do you have to be thin and tall to be pretty. Am I really as ugly as I think I am. Everyone knows I am a feminist, but is it against my belief wanting to feel pretty? although maybe it is against it when you try comparing yourself to those mannequins made by men to try to sell beauty products by degrading women, making them feel ugly to buy them.

I saw a store while taking the picture saying how can a women loose weight by buying their products. Maybe my parents are right and you are beautiful as you feel inside. The thing is that, watching all the other girls at school with fancy clothes and so skinny that they actually make you feel really bad.

When I was little and my parents bought me new clothes, I used to go to school with them and feel like everyone was envious of me cause I was so pretty and elegant. Even when I was older I used to enter school feeling as if every guy had to turn twice to watch me. Now I feel like a little piece of nothing that dresses herself as a piñata and is fat and gross.

Where has this girl gone, where the hell have I done t the Idea that I am pretty no matter what I wear or how I walk. Maybe Beauty is inside me and If I feel it then I am pretty. Maybe I should listen to the feminism, beauty is not being thin and having the most elegant clothes and the hair that blows with the wind.

I am beautiful maybe not like those man made models, but like a gaby made one, and If I feel pretty then I am pretty and no one is going to say me the contrary.

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 26 of 2010 11:46 Am

Yesterday I saw Lala, Tom and wendy we had lunch, we watched a movie and had a pizza. Lala had to leave but she said she was going to be back, but she never did so im worried. I know her very well she is a city girl, but not as elegant and superficial as most of them, she knows how to survive in the most hidden parts of a city like this one, so im kind of tranquil.

I had a great time yesterday, we where very exited that we saw each other after everyone came back from wherever they where. I was happy to see Wendy and Tom again cause I missed them tons. We talked about life, what we did, you look nice!!! if you know what I mean jejejeje.

Today im planing to stay at home and read the books I have to, rest, play on the internet and then call lala to see if she ok.

Nice one Angela, only three more weeks of vacations and Im hoping they are done quickly. Yes im a nerd but when you live in a world like mine, you wish you could be with your friends all the time, although I love my family. Mom being so worried about work all the time, dad always tired or doing something for my mom my two sisters that hate each other and hate me and me who is ....... IDK. I love my family but they are weird.

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 24 of 2010 9:23 pm

I just came back form and extreme weekend, I did rafting and rappel descending from a waterfall, I am very happy about it cause although it was scary I had tons of fun with lala, she came with me.

I arrived I was very tired but still I accompanied lala to the gate and after that did some rounds of guitar hero. I slept the rest of the afternoon had a bath and watch a movie.

I talked to wendy today and she invited me with Tom to have lunch with them tomorrow, well I haven't seen them in a long while Tom went to Africa and wendy to a trip in Mexico, guatemala and Miami, Lala came back from a tour in India and I came back from my vacations in the sun, so I imagine we will all have something to tell and laugh about jejejejeje.

I ant school to start, the thing Is I don't want english class or spanish cause I haven't finished the books so Im nervous. Ok im a junior and although it is exiting, it means that Im closer to graduation and although I figured my life out, Im confused about whats going to happen in the future.

Life is a total mess

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 19 2010 12:44 pm

Almost independence day, it is fun how history looks so far away when actually our independence was 200 years ago, still everyone has a story, during those 200 years, everyone creates a new part of the history of this country.

What have I done, well I have been in three different schools, I have made MUN have a new meaning, and I think I have done what a girl my age can do as a part of this country. Well maybe I could have composed something on guitar, maybe I could have been an advisor for some candidate to the presidency, maybe I could be already in college, but hey I prefer to live my life calmly.

You know something everyone thinks that I am obsessive with all the things I do, that I am irresponsible or even that I am very stressed out with so many activities, but hey life is to short to be complaining about stupid things, I have noticed how much time I have left in high school and all those activities are to use all the time I have to enjoy it, to enjoy being a teen with no problems, with no mayor responsibilities, without fearing what is going to happen on the future.

life is life but sometimes, we wish we could make it stop

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 7 2010 4:25 pm

IM totally bored. Life can be so...................IDK. I don't even know why I write in this blog when I don't have anything to write on it.

Tomorrow I leave for my week on the sun. Tomorrow I hope I can get some excitement and time to finish my book, yes now I have to read coming through slaughter.

I watched my favorite movie like ten thousand times, because my sister gets these strange obsessions with new movies so she makes me watch them like for ever and ever or until she gets bored, and that may take months.

Nothing more to tell, my life has been really confusing, I have had the time to think somethings that happened last year and in nine grade, I ask myself questions I will not be able to answer but still a teenagers life can be confusing when it comes to what would have happened if I........

Why are we so confusing? IDK I just can say that during these ages, we teens tend to search for the truth, you are not a kid any longer you don't try to find who ate the cookies in the cookie jar, or if your sister took your doll. In these ages we look for things like, what is the true meaning of a friend, an enemy, of love.

We are almost grownups so we try to decipher what the hell are those things we see at the movies, why is it so difficult for adults, am I gonna get divorced?????? those type of things.

Life goes on and if it's god's will I will try to forget and this vacations become the little girl that instead of asking the why question about the true meaning of life, Be the girl that wonders, where did I left my Ipod?

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 5 2010 6:05 PM

Vacations can be really boring when it comes to the topic of family. Right I love my family but sometimes they can be a little IDK really boring, why???? cause although I love them I can't be with them all the time, they are always doing plans, always screaming at each other because they disagree with something and well vacations may look really short when it comes to this point.

I miss my friends, I miss having to wake up at 5 Am to go somewhere interesting, getting the bus in the morning, screaming at someone that understands me about school stress, having ten thousand activities and trying to have the best grades in the class. I miss watching how all my friends come to the tree and we talk about HW or life, or even how boring life can be when you don't have someone that understands.

I am almost done with the great Gatsby I have liked it but it is not one of my favorites although the love story is something that has made me think and has kept my mind busy from time to time do congrats mr. Fitzgerald on writing a great book. Now my next book is coming through Slaughter which sounds nice.

I still wish I can find him, if you know what I mean. I feel like he is right behind my nose but I simply can't see him or feel it or maybe fell in love with him. Is it someone new like my dreams that the last nights have brought me tell me. maybe it is a new version of someone I know. IDK anyhow I hope this is my year and I hope I do better than Gatsby lol.

Well happy vacations see everyone later and I hope u have a great time this summer bye.

XOXO

ANGELA

1 of July 2010 7:33 pm

Hey wassup. Ok I had a normal day, I had mandarin class and I played guitar and I was on FB talked to Tom and Wendy, I hope I can meet her on Miami.

I id some exercise and yeah the was about it, why? because I am really bored and life can really suck when it comes to the life of a teenager during vacations.

yeah yeah yeah. LOL im bored and I think I want to go back to school, although I havent started the books I have to read lol.

XOXO

ANGELA