Dcember 19 of 2010 4:23 pm

Yeah well life is still miserable I am a freaking junior is half year one semester missing meaning 3 semesters until my graduations. Three freaking semesters of watching that stupid face all over me saying how ugly I am and me accepting it quietly just because there is something inside me that wants to kiss him.

Remember that dream I told you a couple of months ago? I am not sure who it is but until now I still want it to be him. I still want to be beside him although I want to kill him the next time I see him. On January my mind will be confused between hate and not knowing, love.

My whole blog is about love but im 16 once again and to tell you the truth, this guy is the first time I have ever loved someone, like real love. I have never dated, all glee, never been kissed. This was my first broken heart and with a love that I have to admit has been inside me since freshmen year.

I can't see how I did not accept it until now and all of a sudden this mess happens.

Eli invited all of us to the movies, you remember, and we went to lala's only he lala and I. She left us 2 seconds alone and it was horrible.

Hate life
no ofense

XOXO
Angela

December 18 of 2010 7:15 pm

Sorry for not writing in a long while but my life has been a complete mess these last couple of months. Lets start with the begging of the end.

You know how I was in love with Adam and I thought it was an Adam not a Phillip. I was really happy with my current group of friends, we had plan going to my farm for thanks giving and only my dearest friends knew my secret. "Adam" thought I was in love with Phil a really nice guy form school and that was my scheme until I was sure he liked me the way I liked him.

One week before Thanks giving I invited Mary, Luna, lala and TT (another friend of mine) to my house. We where having fun until my Black Berry rang. FB had sent me an email saying that people where comenting on my new relationship. I was not in a relationship and when I turned lala and TT where laughing.

They had changed my relationship form single to in a relationship with Adam. I was crushed, if he saw that and did not liked me our friendship would go to the floor, but if he did maybe it was a chance to move on. Everyone in the grade called me saying congrats, I faked I was confused so that there was more IDK mystery. Adam called Mary after a while. She putted the loud speaker. He started screaming all over about how I was ugly my hair was horrible and he didn't like me. I was mad I decide to ignore the part that he didn't like me and focus on the ugly I decided to follow the game.

He then called me mad as hell to tell me about it. I first said his entire name and then told him to explain the situation. He started saying how everyone called him and how he was mad. I told him what happened while secretly laughing, I then said mad " IDK my boyfriend should know what the F is happening, I swear I am going to talk with the HS office" he said alright and hanged up.

Minutes later he called Mary again and told her how I called desperately and was crying. nailed it I thought and then things got out of control. He started talking about how I was dumb, how my reputation is really horrible and that from all our group I was the biggest loser, wannabe and good knows what else. I ran to the bathroom crying forgetting about my guests. When I came back to the room they gave me a hug and I felt better. For the first time in my entire life I had a broken heart, he had gone deep down and then destroyed it.

After they all left I went up to my room and cried my parents thought I went to sleep but the truth is my world had come to an end. At least I had my friends to support me. That was a Friday. Weekend was hard although I had a retreat that helped me forget the whole situation but not as much as I thought. Sunday night he sent me a text. "Is there any chem homework?" I was mad how the hell does he dare to treat me that way and then just ask for chem Hw. I did not answer.

He called me a few minutes after that. I answered and said IDK. "You know angie you dont know how to hide when your mad, just tell me what happened?" I was mad as hell, I just told him I was tired and hung up the phone. I called mary and she helped me through.

Monday I told Elizabeth, and Adam now Phillip came to talk to me, I just left. Those two days was me against him. All the groups against one same individual. For me Phillip became the normal guy he was before I liked him but now he was on the black list. Wednesday came and I had glee club, yes we opened a glee club, with him. We had to do duets and before the problem I asked him to be m partner which now meant neither him or I had a partner. Thay gave us time to rehearse and I went with the senior whose partners did not come. He called my name. Can I talk to you?. I was said yes.

That was the most beautiful apology I ever heard we where friends again, I knew he wouldnt do it again so we where friends but now I did not liked him. Mary was still mad at him. I spent a marvelous thanks giving with my friends and then Monday came. Mary was mad because I was friends with him again.

We haven't spoken since but I am getting ahead. He and I where happy as friends until next week when he apologized with Mary too but she wouldn't talk to me. We two have gone to the movies twice with Elizabeth and Laura and Tina and Wendy but we haven't talked since.

Real problem, I think I made a horrible mistake, I shouldn't have said yes that Wednesday at glee club and I lost a great friend I really cared for because of someone who doesn't deserve my friendship.

Another problem, I cant stop thinking about him, hes becoming a Phillip tough I try to forget him. FU life!!!!!!!

Good news I can now drive and I am on winter vacations.

I am going to Lima and try to forget this whole deal.

XOXO
Angela

PDS: I dont know what to do right now

based on a true story

November the 2 of 2010 9:42 PM

Well binationals just started, I had to travel 1 hour to get here but I know my team is going to bite someones ass.

I am confused about my current feelings for what may become my new adam, we all talked about how men disappoints us in some way or another but for some reason their faces will always be part of us.

Nothing new, just life. They accepted me into the glee club, cool!!!!!!!! its called legacy, I hope I can become the new rachel lol.

XOXO

ANGELA

October the 27 2010 7:44 PM

Well life may look weird sometimes when you talk about love. I discovered maybe Adam is still in my heart, this morning I entered to the school sayng how pretty I looked, making my movie star entrance.

Then he came looking this really big and huge movie and theater star with his elegant clothes and showing of his singing abilities as always during the math class. Yes, I just stared at him to see if he just turned his head and see me.

His voice, his voice, his voice. What can you d when although he is not the perfect guy, he has one of the most important aspects of it? I have only one dream, singing together like Rachel and Finn, but more romantic and knowing that nothing can go wrong between both of us.

Am I insane? Am I becoming a crazy person that has lost the little mind it has?

Please tell me dear bloggers, am I in love, or am I just through a stupid phase.

XOXO
Angela

October the 26 2010 6:47 pm

How do you know when you like someone? is it the butterflies? is it the constant misunderstanding? is it thinking about that person all the time? I particularly have no idea.

There is this guy at school, I don't know how to say this but when I am with him I just ignore him, sometimes I am really mad at him. When we are apart I can't stop thinking about him. Am I creating a Phillip, Am I going into a dead end that will only end up in a broken heart?

Please someone tell me what do I need to do to forget such a nonsense, am I going mad? am I making the worstt mistake on my life? Please tell me I am desperate to know

AM I IN LOVE????!!!!!!

XOXO
Angela

October the 15 2010 8:10 pm

Nothing interesting until now, my grades are low because it was a rough start but I know they are going to go up now that I am used to the system.

I am not sure whats happening inside my head and heart, yes I am PMSing but ho know if my feelings towards and asshole are true, I don't know if they are just a product of my imagination or if they are really happening, I hate him most of the times but he can be nice when we are in class.

I hate myself sometimes.

MUN is going great and they chose me to be part of the binational team which is great lol.

Life is weird

XOXO

Angela

September the 30 2010 7:34 pm

It was a fun day, I had MUN and I showed what I am made of.

I feel weird and I think Adam is coming again

School is getting better

I love using elegant clothes

XOXO

ANGELA

September the 26 2010 12:23 Pm

Well I am pretty today, I got prepared to go to a celebration on the hottest restaurant on town. My mom just graduated in the best University here and she go honorary mentions and a Cum Laude, which is the highest honor at that university, ergo, highest honor on this country.

I am really proud of her although it sounds weird that a girl to say that to her mother because besides the cliche of teen and mom fight, you usually ignore it and move on. I have a great relationship with my mom, we are like best friends and she is almost finished with my christmas sock which looks really pretty. Yes, my mom likes to weave and she is great doing it.

I wish that someday, if I don't get a scholarship to go study economics in the states as I want to, I get that honor in that university so that I can make my dream of being President Bullock come true. Yes, I dream big and I am going to strike big.

XOXO

Angela

Pd: Now is when I get all Julie and Julia when I say, if you are reading my blog please comment lol

Dear Alice

Hi my great great friend. I know we haven't been able to talk that much this last month and 2 weeks and although you may think it is because we don't have any time at all, which is almost true, I also had to reencounter myself.

I have to tell you this summer I didn't remember who I really am. I came back and all my head gave twists and turns trying to find myself everywhere and anywhere. I was not sure about my feelings towards some people, and I was not sure who my friends really where and who they wanted. I felt like if I was again the simple 9th grader that came to this school ready to know what the world is really about.

Besides that, having APs all of a sudden has made my head give twists and turn and has made me feel like im useless and hopeless. Don't feel bad please, because it was thanks to you and Elizabeth and Melanie and even Tom and other friends that helped me over come this rough start that had me giving twists and turn all over, and it was thanks to all of them and you that I know that this year is my year.

Love you and thank you for helping me find myself again

Melanie

September the 25 2010 8:06

I know, Im a irresponsible person for not writing on ten days on a row. When you have three activities and lots of APs you barely have any spare time to do something that clams you down.

Well school had a rough start, well it took me one month to get used to my new life as a Junior and well maybe now my grades will bump up a little because they suck!!!!! yes my parents are going to kill me because once again they suck.

I have been better. Yesterday, my dad and I went to Tina's house and our car got stolen and here in Colombia there is a really great chance that it is already destroyed and sold by pieces. You didn't know I am Colombian??? well you will be surprised because I am telling the truth right now, yes I am colombian but my mom is Brazilian so that makes me half and half, although my grandparents and great grandparents are Spaniards, mexicans, British, Irish and Scottish. I live happily on a house a little bit far from my house, I love chick Flicks and I am finally free from my secret love towards the guy that I have been in love with for the past 2 years.

I am telling the truth because this rough school start has taught me that I need to be true to myself, work hard and stop playing to be something I am not. This blog has taught me that truth can be harmful but at the end it makes you feel great inside.

XOXO

Angela

September the 16 2010 7:11pm

Life sucks, Tom's birthday was fine I just gave him a hug, it was awkward lol. Well MUN is great I have been working hard and all my APs make me a busy person, I start driving classes this saturday which is awesome.

I haven't been able to be with Wendy that much 'cause we don't have any class on common and my activities and APs keep me really busy.

I am still a good student, I have no locker, I got a new puppy, my english is worst and worst ever day but well. Tomorrow there is no school because there is a teachers thing. I am going to have lunch with my friends yay!.

Life goes on and on and for some reason I feel like if Adam is dead to me!!!! I mean he is no longer there. He became the same guy which I consider my friend.

Life sucks!!!!

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 30 2010 6:40 pm

Today a representative of yale and Princeton came to my school. I went to see if It was interesting and it really was, I was really interested in Princeton and my parents said "thats the one". My dad thought it would be great when I go to college and teachers at work ask him, how's your daughter doing? and he answers I just called him from Princeton.

Tomorrow is Tom's birthday and I really don't know what to do, because he doesn't like me giving him hugs and just a simple happy birthday would be like yeah just because I remembered. O well as always I guess tomorrow will tell me what I am going to do when I see him.

Tomorrow is my heaviest day, because all my four blocks are AP that means tons of homework and no time to even drink something. Life is a mystery and the only thing to do with it is to seize the day.

Today my dad said he was really proud.

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 29 2010 4:01 pm

its me again and it is kind of early to do my almost daily entry, I am bored and maybe its because the only thing I did today was, well, basically homework. Matt is online but it would be awkward for me after Friday and he doesn't like to be bothered he only MSN people when he wants.

I can't stop thinking how Tom thought that of me, is that what all my friends think??????? it is kind of confusing and strange to be bothered without knowing and then someone only comes and with such simple words tells you everything. You know the story.

It is weird and uncomfortable to think that so I will continue reading and go tomorrow to school and forget that the little accident at Tom's car ever happened.

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 28 2010 6:10 pm

Its saturday and I have to read two gigantic books for monday. They are my type, romantic but with a touch of history and enchantment. I love the knighthood stories all that chivalry and romance, I now know why Don Quijote wanted to become one. I wish to be one of the ladies for whom this gentlemen fight for it would be so cool but sad because they may die.

Yesterday I had a killer day, I had class and then went to Toms house until 4 so that we could go to Melanie's house and get ready for Tina's party. At her house we danced ate and said what we where going to do at the party which I couldn't attend because my parents where going mad about me being out at such hours of the night.

I did arrived to the party but they told Tom he had to leave the car outside, parked on the street and he was insecure about it so he said he would stay in the car. All our friends left and I stayed with him because I know he doesn't like to be left alone, although he told me it was ok if I left. While I was helping him park I was telling him to be careful with a car right behind him and he said hi didn't drive like Matt. I told him that Matt is a great driver and he told me I thought that just because I liked him. I thought he was kidding at the beginning but I then realize he was serious. I told him it wasn't true, yes he is nice but not my type, and that I don't like anyone at this moment. He asked me if I was sure and I obviously told him that yes.

I was shocked about this, is that why July has been telling me that I look pretty just because I want to attract someones attention, do I look like someone that wants Matt's attention?. Once again he is a nice guy and he is quite a gentleman which makes me laugh when I feel sad but I only see him as a good friend of mine. Do I look like someone is attracted to him?am I giving him wings when I am not supposed to? or maybe although Im not sure about it, I raised someone's jealousy by being close to him and that person started the rumors.

You can never know, because on High School specially if you are on my High School everyone thinks they have the right to bother you, invent rumors about you, and even think they have the right to destroy your friendships without asking.

I am still confused on what Tom said last night but when your sixteen, most of the things your friends tell you are confusing.

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 25 2010 7:01 pm

One week of school and I am starting to get used to ten thousand homework's, running up and down the hill and even tests. I had Pre-ap math test today and I was so so so worried about it that at the end I forgot that and I think I assed that test. The teacher is funny cause she speaks at the speed of sound and you don't get anything but when you write it in your notebook it actually makes sense.

Ap classes are kind of hard, well to tell you the truth really hard, I had to read a 100000 pages book with like letter -5 in two days and I haven't even finished it. English is all about the AP exam so Ive been writing 40 minutes essays. Today was fun cause we read the prologue for The Canterbury Tales and we did a tabloid or however its spelled which I liked 'cause its a theater term and I like theater.

AP macro is my favorite class we talk about how economics affect life and it is really fun. I started basketball practice yesterday and I had tons of fun, and today I started introducing MUN to new applicants to the organization so yeah. Leadership is also great I am helping a friend out and we are entering STUCO and the fashion show, thing that my dad doesn't like.

There's a new girl at school named Melinda and she is great, she loves theater, she is great with politics and she knows how to put Tom in line. She is a great person and friday we are going to her house to see a gleeathon, really really fun. O well life goes on and I am finally a Junior one week has passed as I see all my life as a student right in front of my eyes and I think wow I am going to college soon.

When nothing goes right, go left jejejeje

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 23 2010 8:35 pm

Its late and I forgot to tell you I already had my first week of school. It was a total mess. I had to fight to get my schedule, I had to run up and down the hill to go to class and I was full of dust because of the constructions.

Even though this, school is the best thing I have ever experienced and I saw my friends I wore my hair without a hairband and some guys started flirting with me lol jk.

School is awesome specially if you have great friends you can share them with.

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 14 2010 8:04 pm

Hey guys, well I went to school on friday to help my dad get ready for tuesday, I saw matt, mark and Susan. We had a great time and we met the new kids which are nice. School is totally destroyed and they changed it completely.

I felt sick today and I was on bed all day watching glee, lol my grandma bought me the DVD.

seize the day

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 12 2010 6:36 pm

Another boring day, another day went off and I am closer to school. I can't believe I am now a Junior it looks like yesterday that I entered high school and now I am thinking of college.

Yes im scared but I know something, say hello to this countries new president!!!!!!! wow

XOXO

ANGELA

Dear me

I just write this so that I can have 50 entries, wow 1/2 year and I have 50 entries I feel happy about that jejejeje. Well just remember one week for school be fresh pretty and remeber what matters is what its in the inside .

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 10 2010 4:58

Hey have you ever planned something for your future???? maybe your career, you mayor, may people plan their wedding when they are 14, how about the perfect guy???????

I have and I already have planned him up and down. Lets start with his brain, he has to be as analytical and intelligent as Sherlock Holmes (not the classic one, but the one made by Robert Downey JR) and Cal lightman from lie to me. He has to be as poetical as the lead singer from Coldplay and have the voice of the lead singer in Nickel back. He has to have the artistic talent of Johnny Deep and finally he has to be as awesome and gorgeous as Adam Levine.

Yes thats the perfect guy for me and every day I have another thing to add to him. LOL

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 8 2010 3:18 pm

Missing someone is a natural part of all human beings, missing a friend or a family member are part of you as the winning the cup is part of the player, it may not be the most important part of it, but it is still present.

I say this because I started missing people during summer vacations and may be missing some people more than others, at the end everything came to the conclusion that missing is a part of me, it has always been part of me although I had never felt it.

This entry is about how we can think that people around us are not involve with our feelings, but as soon a person enters your heart there is nothing you can do, because when that person says a joke, you laugh, when it cries you cry, when it is not there, you miss him or her.

People are a part of you just as missing them makes a part of yourself.

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 7 2010 8:05 pm

Life has treated me well, I have to admit, Life has been good to me. The thing is does life gives you signs, something to know which one is the right path, which one is the right thing to do, or what its true and false. Does life tells you how to do things or the wrong way to do it?

I come again with my conclusion of another entry, Life is a mystery not only because love is a part of it, but also because it sends signs that not many may understand. Life is a mystery because does signs are not always clear but they are always at sight of everyone, but only you know what it means, although your not sure.

Today I talked to Susan and she told me she didn't want to talk about love or something familiar with it, I took that as a sign that maybe I shouldn't be worrying about it either. I did not want to talk to Wendy today, just because I wasn't in the mood to talk with anybody after I talked to Susan on the phone.

Yes life is a mystery and the only thing we can do is try to play with it, in a good way, by enjoying it and having fun, cause besides being mysterious it is short and as the old phrase says, Ce la Vie although I think I wrote it wrong jejeje.

XOXO

ANGELA

Dear Alice

Hey Alice, just wanted to talk to you because school is near I am bored and you are a great friend with which I can talk.

Well life has treated me well, as you may know, im bored I have to read another book for spanish and it is Really big and boring, not as Coming through Slaughter but still jejejeje.

Just wanted to know how are you, when can we go watch a movie or something before school, so that we can talk????

Love Angela

August the 6 2010 2:42 Pm

Hey guys, well today I worked in MUN, in guitar, and watched tv until there nothing more to do jejejejeje right now, someone I am not sure may be a Phillip is online but what can be done life too short to be worrying about caring little more about a good friend of yours.

I am on my little sis room helping her with some drawings and puzzles, she likes them jejeje. I am also talking with Wendy that is at work and she finishes it in abut a week.

Life is awesome but it can get boring

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 5 2010 12:06 Pm

Music, some may call it inspiration, other may call it a way to have the best fun in a party. I call it differently, A way to express what I feel. Although many don't know me, I am a person that may have 13 different emotions at the same time, but at the end, I only need one small song to realize what my true feelings are.

When I hear a happy song, I feel powerful, I feel I can reach for the stars and make my dreams come true because it me we are talking about. When I hear a sad song, I feel bad for the things I have done to others and want redemption. When I hear songs like Fix you from Coldplay, I feel like wanting to express my feelings to those I love, not necessarily to an Adam or a Phillip, but a friend or a family member.

Many songs make me want to practice my singing and acting because I do that with them and I imagine my self in a huge stage in front of millions of people from all around the world, that have come just to see me. Love songs, make me feel confuse, because they make me rethink about that guy.

Music, songs, Lyrics are part of life as leaves are part of a tree. Music may help you write a poem, inspire yourself and sometimes make you feel in love with that special someone you still don't know. Thats the power of music.

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 4 2010 7:27 Pm

Life can be a mystery, why????? 'cause love is big and important part of it. Love is part of life as Vanilla is part of the ice cream list of any store in the world. It may be called French Vanilla, coconut Vanilla, you may even see it at pineapple and Vanilla, either way it is Vanilla and it is always present, just as love is always present in your life.

But why is Love a mystery and Vanilla isn't???????? Because you will always know that Vanilla is Vanilla, but with love, sometimes you can't know the difference. Yes, It is true, I know you have felt it, if not let me illustrate you.

You know a guy or a girl, he may become a good friend of yours. You have known each other for let's say two years maybe more and one day while you are watching that person, you realize a strange feeling you have never felt, It can't be love right???? Because you have known each other for a long time and its only that your feelings have changed a little, caring more for that person as a friend. After sometime you may accept you may be in love, but after some days you forget it. The comes Summer you don't see that person and you think of that person almost daily. It can't be love right?????? Because its summer you get to miss your friends. You start dreaming with, Guess...., that same guy or girl. Now your confused.

Love may look like a simple friendship, Missing a friend, a feeling if like that person is a brother or sister and who know a feeling of protection you have for all your friends. It can't be love right??????????? Love is part of life, and life is composed by various people who can make you feel different things that may be loved disguised as them. This is the reason why if love is part of life then that means life is a complete Mystery.

If you know what I am saying, that can only mean one simple thing, you are already part of a Story of a Truth.

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 3 2010 1:15 PM

Hey guys, or whoever reads this. Today is as boring as hell, I still have one book to read, From today in two weeks I enter school.

Today nothing interesting happened. Today I had no dreams, I had no other clue about who the mysterious guy is, but well life is for living and it's too short to be wondering about who, when or where.

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 2 2010 4:26 pm

Again my life seems confusing and strange, what can you know you fell in love with somebody, when you only see him as a friend, but you dream him as something different. Life as love is confusing and maybe I am giving this issue to much thought about it.

I may be only a 16 year old teen but Im starting to feel things bigger than me.

XOXO

ANGELA

August the 1 2010 6:52 PM

Well I went to my farm this weekend and I had as much fun as anyone like me can have. Some friends of my dad came to visit and they are like my uncles so It was like one of my funny family reunions.

My parrots called Matthew and Maurice, well I discovered the maybe Maurice is a girl and maybe my parrots are in love, cause they where doing things that can be confused as fighting sometimes. LOL. The other parrot, Charlie, AKA Owl (cause it looks like and OWL), is getting to know us better, and maybe sometime soon we can get to pet him, or get him out of his cage. Don't get us wrong if you see the old farm and our parrots you would see they live in paradise, we take them to the vet every two weeks so that he can check them out, WE give them as many crackers, nuts and apple pie as they want, cause they start screaming for it jejeje, They have their own Outdoor house (which is accommodated with a roof and a stick) where they can stand near the house, walk change of stick between the two, cause Charlie doesn't have. They are treated well.

Tom called me twice but I was not there so I discovered it when I came back from lunch, I sent him a text to see what was happening but he never answered o well. I also sent one to Lala but she didn't answer. I wanted to talk to Wendy but again, I couldn't. Well maybe this was my weekend to spend with me, Myself and I jejeje. Talking of which I finally Finished Coming Through Slaughter. Confusing and kind of weird but Good.

Well I had a strange dream, I was in a Science classroom with my friends and some kids of my classroom. We had to do something and I went near a table when suddenly a guy grabbed me by the hips, said me he loved me and kissed my cheek. The we started cutting paper and we left the room. That was strange, because I left him do all that without saying no. OK maybe it is really weird but does it mean something? maybe yes maybe no, but life is too short to be rethinking dreams.

Life goes on as well as time.

XOXO

ANGELA

Dear Alice

Hey Alice wassup!!!!!!! Im here at my house waiting and waiting and waiting for something interesting happens.

Want to know the truth im feeling weird this days and you know which 2 are not interrupting my thoughts lately except when like a guy comes around or they want to make me feel bad.

I don't have a purpose for this entry, I just wanted to talk to somebody and you were not online so this is my way to talk jejeje.

For some reason there are strange feelings again going though my brain, maybe happiness for going back to school and maybe scared because I haven't read the books jejeje.

Hope to see you soon Alice, we need to plan watching a movie soon or just hang out jejejeje.

XOXO

ANGIE

July the 29 of 2010 1:10 PM

Hey guys. Ive been in a party all day, but not like party party. I have been changing my clothes ten thousand times, I had make up on, I started Singing my favorite music while I was combing my hair in different styles.

Life can be a party if you want it to be maybe that is what I have been missing this summer, maybe I should have had more fun here at home instead of getting bored all vacations doing nothing.

Sometimes life can look boring but a as beauty you just need to make it work so you are never bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 27 of 2010 6:20 PM

Life can be such a mess when you talk about beauty, I went to take a picture at the mall today for my parents I discovered how ugly I am in the outside I felt bad for the whole day when suddenly it hit me.

Why is beauty so overrated, why do you have to be thin and tall to be pretty. Am I really as ugly as I think I am. Everyone knows I am a feminist, but is it against my belief wanting to feel pretty? although maybe it is against it when you try comparing yourself to those mannequins made by men to try to sell beauty products by degrading women, making them feel ugly to buy them.

I saw a store while taking the picture saying how can a women loose weight by buying their products. Maybe my parents are right and you are beautiful as you feel inside. The thing is that, watching all the other girls at school with fancy clothes and so skinny that they actually make you feel really bad.

When I was little and my parents bought me new clothes, I used to go to school with them and feel like everyone was envious of me cause I was so pretty and elegant. Even when I was older I used to enter school feeling as if every guy had to turn twice to watch me. Now I feel like a little piece of nothing that dresses herself as a piñata and is fat and gross.

Where has this girl gone, where the hell have I done t the Idea that I am pretty no matter what I wear or how I walk. Maybe Beauty is inside me and If I feel it then I am pretty. Maybe I should listen to the feminism, beauty is not being thin and having the most elegant clothes and the hair that blows with the wind.

I am beautiful maybe not like those man made models, but like a gaby made one, and If I feel pretty then I am pretty and no one is going to say me the contrary.

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 26 of 2010 11:46 Am

Yesterday I saw Lala, Tom and wendy we had lunch, we watched a movie and had a pizza. Lala had to leave but she said she was going to be back, but she never did so im worried. I know her very well she is a city girl, but not as elegant and superficial as most of them, she knows how to survive in the most hidden parts of a city like this one, so im kind of tranquil.

I had a great time yesterday, we where very exited that we saw each other after everyone came back from wherever they where. I was happy to see Wendy and Tom again cause I missed them tons. We talked about life, what we did, you look nice!!! if you know what I mean jejejeje.

Today im planing to stay at home and read the books I have to, rest, play on the internet and then call lala to see if she ok.

Nice one Angela, only three more weeks of vacations and Im hoping they are done quickly. Yes im a nerd but when you live in a world like mine, you wish you could be with your friends all the time, although I love my family. Mom being so worried about work all the time, dad always tired or doing something for my mom my two sisters that hate each other and hate me and me who is ....... IDK. I love my family but they are weird.

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 24 of 2010 9:23 pm

I just came back form and extreme weekend, I did rafting and rappel descending from a waterfall, I am very happy about it cause although it was scary I had tons of fun with lala, she came with me.

I arrived I was very tired but still I accompanied lala to the gate and after that did some rounds of guitar hero. I slept the rest of the afternoon had a bath and watch a movie.

I talked to wendy today and she invited me with Tom to have lunch with them tomorrow, well I haven't seen them in a long while Tom went to Africa and wendy to a trip in Mexico, guatemala and Miami, Lala came back from a tour in India and I came back from my vacations in the sun, so I imagine we will all have something to tell and laugh about jejejejeje.

I ant school to start, the thing Is I don't want english class or spanish cause I haven't finished the books so Im nervous. Ok im a junior and although it is exiting, it means that Im closer to graduation and although I figured my life out, Im confused about whats going to happen in the future.

Life is a total mess

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 19 2010 12:44 pm

Almost independence day, it is fun how history looks so far away when actually our independence was 200 years ago, still everyone has a story, during those 200 years, everyone creates a new part of the history of this country.

What have I done, well I have been in three different schools, I have made MUN have a new meaning, and I think I have done what a girl my age can do as a part of this country. Well maybe I could have composed something on guitar, maybe I could have been an advisor for some candidate to the presidency, maybe I could be already in college, but hey I prefer to live my life calmly.

You know something everyone thinks that I am obsessive with all the things I do, that I am irresponsible or even that I am very stressed out with so many activities, but hey life is to short to be complaining about stupid things, I have noticed how much time I have left in high school and all those activities are to use all the time I have to enjoy it, to enjoy being a teen with no problems, with no mayor responsibilities, without fearing what is going to happen on the future.

life is life but sometimes, we wish we could make it stop

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 7 2010 4:25 pm

IM totally bored. Life can be so...................IDK. I don't even know why I write in this blog when I don't have anything to write on it.

Tomorrow I leave for my week on the sun. Tomorrow I hope I can get some excitement and time to finish my book, yes now I have to read coming through slaughter.

I watched my favorite movie like ten thousand times, because my sister gets these strange obsessions with new movies so she makes me watch them like for ever and ever or until she gets bored, and that may take months.

Nothing more to tell, my life has been really confusing, I have had the time to think somethings that happened last year and in nine grade, I ask myself questions I will not be able to answer but still a teenagers life can be confusing when it comes to what would have happened if I........

Why are we so confusing? IDK I just can say that during these ages, we teens tend to search for the truth, you are not a kid any longer you don't try to find who ate the cookies in the cookie jar, or if your sister took your doll. In these ages we look for things like, what is the true meaning of a friend, an enemy, of love.

We are almost grownups so we try to decipher what the hell are those things we see at the movies, why is it so difficult for adults, am I gonna get divorced?????? those type of things.

Life goes on and if it's god's will I will try to forget and this vacations become the little girl that instead of asking the why question about the true meaning of life, Be the girl that wonders, where did I left my Ipod?

XOXO

ANGELA

July the 5 2010 6:05 PM

Vacations can be really boring when it comes to the topic of family. Right I love my family but sometimes they can be a little IDK really boring, why???? cause although I love them I can't be with them all the time, they are always doing plans, always screaming at each other because they disagree with something and well vacations may look really short when it comes to this point.

I miss my friends, I miss having to wake up at 5 Am to go somewhere interesting, getting the bus in the morning, screaming at someone that understands me about school stress, having ten thousand activities and trying to have the best grades in the class. I miss watching how all my friends come to the tree and we talk about HW or life, or even how boring life can be when you don't have someone that understands.

I am almost done with the great Gatsby I have liked it but it is not one of my favorites although the love story is something that has made me think and has kept my mind busy from time to time do congrats mr. Fitzgerald on writing a great book. Now my next book is coming through Slaughter which sounds nice.

I still wish I can find him, if you know what I mean. I feel like he is right behind my nose but I simply can't see him or feel it or maybe fell in love with him. Is it someone new like my dreams that the last nights have brought me tell me. maybe it is a new version of someone I know. IDK anyhow I hope this is my year and I hope I do better than Gatsby lol.

Well happy vacations see everyone later and I hope u have a great time this summer bye.

XOXO

ANGELA

1 of July 2010 7:33 pm

Hey wassup. Ok I had a normal day, I had mandarin class and I played guitar and I was on FB talked to Tom and Wendy, I hope I can meet her on Miami.

I id some exercise and yeah the was about it, why? because I am really bored and life can really suck when it comes to the life of a teenager during vacations.

yeah yeah yeah. LOL im bored and I think I want to go back to school, although I havent started the books I have to read lol.

XOXO

ANGELA

June the 29 2010 8:00 PM

Hey people of earth and the rest of planets. Well nothing interesting with my life, I woke up and then my dad said you look fat, take care of yourself. Yeah my day was kinda boring I did Wiifit and watched movies the whole day without stop.

I read a part of the book I had to read. The great Gatsby. I miss my friends I miss waking up each morning and going to school to find all my friends in the same tree.

vacations may suck sometimes

XOXO

ANGELA

June the 28 of 2010 1:38 PM

Hey, wassup!!!! lol well nothing new, I got bit by my sister yesterday in a place I don't want to say. I went to my farm with lala and we had tons of fun because we played Mario and wiifit, yes I am failing at trying to loose some pounds, cause I am feeling fat.

Im going to Fort Lauderdale the 8 I think and glee's new episodes start the 15 and I am like WTF because all my friends already saw them so yeah. Nothing new, I couldn't talk to Wendy friday cause my internet totally failed so I am like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Life can suck sometimes, and I have to read 4 books this summer for next year and I am so bored these days that I am actually reading the Great Gatsby, although I am only half way through chapter 2 LOL it looks interesting and I hope it is a love story, cause I love those.

I had a strange dream in which I fell in love with a new guy who is also in love with me, guess ADAM, and I feel more confused every time, when am I going to meet him am I ever gonna find him, you Mr. Right. I wish there was a book that tells you who is that person right for you. I wish that sometimes I could just be born knowing that guy.

I have discovered something in my years at school, my wish is impossible cause you meet new people everyday, it is also impossible because if you already have the one for you, how would you know the feeling of true love, that feeling you have when you have a crush on somebody or when you have your first date or maybe when you meet a philip, a person that doesn't know you exist but you are totally into him, people would not know that feeling of talking about that Phillip with your friends while you are in the mall or something like that.

Yes, I wish I could find Adam, but I want to meet him feeling the wonderful feeling of love and feeling that he is absolutely the right one. That is what I have done these two weeks of my life, getting absolutely bored about life, but knowing that next year, I don't know but maybe, I may meet my prince charming cause as everyone knows, the last thing you loose is hope and god knows I haven't. He is out there and I will meet him someday, hopefully next year.

XOXO

ANGELA

June the 22 of 2010 8:09 PM

Hey, sorry again, well last days of school where like normal I had a nervous breakdown in the math exam and the bio one was the easiest one. I spent three days with lala and she stayed one day at my place the next one we went and saw a movie and then I stayed at her house, and she left me at mine's the next day, since then I have been really bored and I haven't done anything.

Today lala came home and we played wii again, like last time, ok I have nothing better to say, I am flying to Miami next month and I know that I am going to find all of my classmates there wiiiiiiiiiiii.

XOXO

ANGELA

Dear Alice

Hey Alice, how are you????? I hope you are doing great in Texas, I really miss you and hope we can get to see each other at Miami. Long story here, Im really bored I haven't done anything since saturday that lala left me at home after I spent the night at her house. It's been really boring and I hope vacations are over soon, cause I miss waking up every morning to see all of my friends near that beautiful tree, giving hugs to everyone even bothering mat about it, and although you don't believe it I miss saying hi to Tom in the morning while his doing god knows what. I miss Elizabeths smile in the morning while the twins bother her for being British, although we all know it is only a joke.

I miss lala asking for my calculator or my bio homework each morning, I even miss Penny and the other ones, although they treat us like trash sometimes. You know what I miss the most??? I miss having those wonderful rehearsals after school, with you and lala cause the rest where just ignoring us lol, I also miss helping Mel, when she freaked out backstage before going into scene.

This year was awesome and now I am feeling stuck inside my house while all my friends are having fun around Europe and the States. OMG, I miss school so much, although I haven't even started summer reading. I really hope you are doing great and send you're sister a hug and a good luck. I really hope you are doing great on Texas, and I am anxious for it to be friday so that we can talk, my IBFF lol.

XOXO

ANGELA

DERA EVERYONE

I love......Im sorry that Mark saw my and almost yours blog alice still you l always be my IBFF and I love the way you all support me through goos and bad times, I love you all

TOMORROW LAST DAY AS A SOPHOMORE !!!!!!

XOXO

ANGELA

Dear Alice

Hey how are you???? I have to tell you something, remember that strange feeling I talked you about, well I discovered im in love, me psychiatrist told me today cause I told her the whole situation and she told me that that is normal for a girl like me.

I dont know since when and best of all I don't know from which person, I just know that the feeling is inside and it is eating me. O well life can be harsh sometimes in these matters, do you think my MR, Right is right behind my nose and I cant see it???? O Alice im so confused right now, at least I know it is not, you know who, and if your confused, it is the one that Mary always bothers me with, also the twins start bothering, but I guess you know who am I talking about right???????? o well life goes on and I only have to thank life, for having such wonderful friends like Emily, lala, Tom and specially you.

Love u dear

Melanie (not the sub-mind lol)

June the 10 2010 7:54 PM

Hey I know that who ever reads this blog might be pissed because I haven't written on it jejejeje. O well is that my life has been really boring this days, what can I say they accepted me in 6 APs so im happy I received two academic awards. and o want to know something????? well the 27 we had the end of the year music show, and my band was part of it so I got really happy, the thing is that all High School was called for an assembly so that they could see some songs of the show, so all my friends where there and Adam was there to so im like SHIT!!!!!! well I had to sing say aint so from Wezzer, which I heard it and it is totally awesome. I entered the stage and I sang as I never did before, I sang with my heart, I even danced in the stage while I was singing and I showed what I had to give.

Once again after one month from the seussical, I find myself again in that same stage and I am so happy that I went of stage smiling. I love being on stage, and guess what I screamed where is my High School and people where screaming and I screamed let me see your hands and people did the wave and People where screaming I love you Angela aaaaaaaaaaa.

It was so awesome I was feeling like an angel. You know something it is absolutely awesome that feeling, I went out and three weeks in a row I received people saying I love you, I didn't know you sang that well, OMG Sign me an autograph. I felt so good.

The rest of the days, well I received a mention because the basketball teams I was in won third and first place in the championships we participated this year, and I have become closer to my friends, which I love jejeje and that is all.

XOXO

ANGELA

May the 19 2010 8:33pm

Ok just to say something short, I am sorry but I have been really busy with things like basket and classes. BTW we won the finals!!!!!!! our school is a champion and that means my name is going to be in the honor hall in my school, YAY.

Other things, umm it is spirit week it was world cup day on tuesday, meaning we had to bring the shirt of a FIFA team and today was hat day. Tomorrow is pj day and I am exited to wear my favorite PJs to school.

Again I am confused but now I even dream about him, I don't know if it is just a silly trick or if it is something real, cause I think it is really annoying to see a good friend and feel butterflies. Well whatever life goes on and maybe I will forget about this and make fun of these events some day, when I find my real Adam, when I find that perfect guy, because although I still feel something maybe it is just a bad joke.

XOXO

ANGELA

2 of May 2010 9:37 PM

Havent been able to write in while and all of you must be anxious to know how I did in the Seussical, well we did awesome the Hogar presentation the kids love us but one of the sets fell down. In the night we did so great, that the people where begging for tickets the next night, Thursday I cried cause I messed up various times and friday was the best show ever, my parents came and my granny to they where really happy about it.

Well the cast party was really fun we laughed to much to be true, and we said bye to the Seussical, I couldn't sleep that night thinking how much I will miss having something to do, something useful and worthy to do. The saturday I went to Wendy's house and had loads of fun and today I rested because this week I haven't been able to sleep.

Can you imagine that I sleep walked on friday? I woke up on math. O well life is very unpredictable. That same day we had a conference in which they where picking students to compete in improvised dancing and win for their team, LOL you should really know that whenever they do something like that I raise my hand, but this time I had decided not to go, still the person that was picking students took me by the arm and took me to the stage. It was funny, because my dad was a jury LOL.

Well life goes on and Adam is no longer Adam and my friends are ok, o well life is life

XOXO

ANGELA

DEAR ALICE:

Hey I know I have been really far, blog manner sorry for not writting in a long time but hey we see each other at school everyday, jajajajaja LUV U. well I am here in CC Miss Tellez, is giving everybody time to finish their genograms and I am taking this time to write to you jajajaja. Hey whats up?????????? sorry I am very happy today for some stupid reason and ummmmmmm I slept the whole bio class, but after 4 hour rehearsal and 3 hour ride home, I went to bed pretty late jajajajaja

Just to say you are doing great as the cat, going to miss the musical when it is finished lol

LUV
XOXO
ANGELA

26 of April 2010 10:47 PM

I feel pretty dumb, you know how sometimes you think something but then it simply disappears but it still bothers you???? Dear good I feel that maybe I should do not care about what others do with their life's and decisions, maybe I should do something more useful with my life maybe I should only worry about what is happening in my own head instead of going on and on telling myself things that may not be true. Dear good I wish I could find that perfect guy and then just finish with this relationship, heart breaking and feeling pathetic.

Ok changing the topic, rehearsal was stressing, Tom was a little bit stubborn but still I am having fun in the musical, although todays attempt to run the whole way through was a complete fail, and my costume was not ready!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! o well life is short and tomorrow is really boring 'cause I have boring classes, dear good save me.

Show is Wednesday, Thursday and friday and my stress and running and people screaming at me, I hope it works for something. Whatever im really tired and I finally did the 10 entries for this month. LOL

XOXO

ANGELA

25 of April 2010 10:26PM

Really boring day, but my parents already gave me more independence and well I was permitted to go walking alone to the mall in front of my neighborhood for the first time, although it was only to buy some paper. And I did HW organized my desk and that was my normal sunday

XOXO

ANGELA

April the 24 2010 8:30 PM

Okay it was a great saturday. I had rehearsal for the Musical, 4 days and counting LOL. I saw Adam today, and umm I just took a tactic, just ignore him and we will see what happens, nothing interesting happened he just did what he always do but at least this time he was nicer, he even said goodbye while I was leaving, because I had to leave early, you know I leave really far away so yes. Tom was also there and he also said goodbye while I was going out the door.

I enjoyed really much rehearsal, Tom called my Medusa for my hair LOL it was pretty fun. I saw Wendy and we where like talking and having fun and T was also there and Matthew. I already discovered that I have my last rehearsal on monday until 6 PM. which has me worried because well, it will be 4 hours with Adam and hummmm well how am I going to resist wanting to look at him and wanting to tell him, I love you!!!!!!! Besides how am I going to resist Tom for 4 hours telling me jokes about Adam and me. Dear good if someone knows the cure for a life being in love with someone you cant get, please tell me because although m heart is pumping, everyday it gets more broken. Every day while I am listening to my ipod, I imagine him dedicating those beautiful songs by my favorite bands, Nickleback Maroon 5 and Coldplay.

If someone knows the cure for craziness please tell me, because I am crazy in love. I may sound so lame right now but you cant blame me I just turned 16 and in only few weeks my life has changed in a total and drastic way. Well I am intelligent he hasn't discover in these two weeks, he will not discover, because after all I am waiting for the day when I realize how lame it is to like a boy like him.

XOXO

ANGELA

23 of April 2010 1:44 PM

Happy Birthday for me!!!!!!!! yes that is right, today is my birthday and I am pretty happy, because all my friends told me happy b-day and my music class band played today, and I didnt screwed it up so I am pretty happy about it. I am again in Computers class and I am pretty bored cause Tom is not here, he had something to do so he left earlier. I jave rehearsal until 6 and then a couple of friends are coming over to my place to spend the night, and tomorrow again rehearsal, I brought cake so that we can share during rehearsal and I am eating pizza YEI!!!!!!! Mary, eli and my other friends, well I want to go to my finca to celebrate so I will wait unitl it is safer, and then I can take them there and have a wonderful weekend.

Adam, and I mean ADAM!!!!!!! is not here which means that I am sad, he said happy B-day like 3 times this day to me but well, he looked so nice today with those clothes he was wearing, cause today was out of dress code, Mathew gave me a hug in lunch and T said happy b-day. Lala didnt know what day was today she thought it was the 22 so she almost did not say anything. The teachers said hi and that is it, I am still bored and there is about 10 minutes to the end of the class, which makes me happy LOL

HAPPY 23 OF APRIL
XOXO
ANGELA

21 of April 2010 12:48 Am

I am really bored, I have been arriving home, aproximatly between 6:30 to 9:00 Pm to my house, reson why I havent been able to write, which makes me more stressed. You imagine how many things happened this couple days, and the necessitiy I had to write but as busy as I am being right now it is imposible for me.

Nothing new just allot of rehearsal and class and basketball games MUN leadership ect... friends, nothing new mat is asking me to write about him and he doesnt want to come my oarty this friday because he says he will have a stomach ake, thing which is totally pathetic in my personal opinion, but he is still a good friend of mine. Everyone is perfect and yep thats all

XOXO
ANGELA

Dear Alice

Hi, how are you? I just wanted to say thanks, thanks for being my friend and not just my friend but my Best friend, My IBFF. Well this is not going to be very long, because I am not very creative lol but I just want to tell you something, When I saw you for the first time, I thought I maybe could get a new friend, but actually I got one of the best friends I have ever had in my entire life!!!!! Alice what can a girl like me say when you already know my deepest secrets you already know my family, but there is something you don't know and that is about the secret that it was the one Carol told you the other night, You trusted me so I will trust you, you know Mark and you know what I thing about him, well actually since last year I've had a fight with my two other minds about what they told you the other day, and my feelings are uncertain towards him. I just want to say that If you consider me you trust me this I can trust you anything, I think I may be falling for him, If you know what I mean. Please don't tell anybody, please don't say anything to a single soul.

Just wanted to say that and umm I do my B promise to always be there for you when you need me, and don't worry I will be there always for you.

xoxo

Melanie AKA Angela aka BBFF

15 of April 2010 9:12 PM

Sorry I am really sorry for not writing in a very long time, the thing is I have been really busy with stupidities and priorities. I had an MUN conference a leadership retreat and rehearsals until late for two weeks without stopping, which is kind of annoying. Tomorrow is the parent-teacher conference and I am very nervous because although I think I did good maybe some teacher would say bad things.

Well just had the weirdest day, my friends are making me crazy except Wendy which is my IBFF, she is one of the only true friends I have, I am really confused by stupid things like School and relationships if you know what I mean.

What can a girl do to be accepted in a world where popular kids rule and you are as simple as IDK a tree. I love how I am because I am unique and I really don't mind about how I look or how I talk or walk, I don't care what it is in the outside but I care about the inside. Dear good help me.

Hey, you know something? they invited e to this congress of the most promising scholars in the world, and I am really happy about it my parents almost cried when they heard it and they are doing what they can to get the money to go.

Nothing else

XOXO

Angela

April the 5 2010 9:16 PM

Hey!!!!!! well what can I say about life....... Today was boring really boring I did homework and I feel more relaxed. I talked to Susan and Tom. Im pretty bored and I have not too much to say about today cause I did nothing except get screamed at by my father because sometimes he is a really great teacher but some others he goes completely nuts about discipline and MUN. Ok I said prefer going to MUN rather than a retreat with the Leadership group? "Ok but you have to have your investigation by tomorrow WTF??? that is impossible I have started and I am almost there but I need more time than that.

XOXO

ANGELA

April the 4 2010 9:21 PM

Ok, Ok ,Ok I am really going nuts, nuts, nuts. How do you tell when somebody likes you and how do you know you like him??? I have told myself for over a year that I don't like him even in that time when he thought he was a Philip I mean, WTF.

My life was nice today I spent today on my bed talking to everyone I know because I am pretty pathetic and annoying when I am bored and ha ha I am pretty picky when it comes to talk with people in chat. I am really bored and I wish I could go to school NOW, I am a pretty creepy person I know but If someone in this world is reading my blog, they should know I am not normal I am a freak and maybe I will get married with a freak and have freaky children.

nothing interesting today, Tom called to know if there was school tomorrow and he was with Mat an american friend, they started screaming and it was pretty fun. I tried to call lala but she did not answer cause I wanted to invite her to my house cause I really need to talk to her.

OK yes I am pretty pathetic, m grammar is horrible and I think I am forgetting the little english I know, OMG I think that maybe I am really going to need a professional help, NICE.

Last thing to say HOW THE HELL DO YOU KNOW WHEN A GUY IS A PHILIP AN ADAM OR A COLLIN???. If you know please tell me

XOXO

ANGELA

April the 3 2010 8:26

What the crap!!!!!!!!!!! I am really becoming Mad, I am really becoming crazy and the thing is that there is this guy at school, he is getting me so confused I had some problems with him at the begging of the semester and that is because he thought he was a Philip, a man that I like but he doesn't like me, The I thought it was an Adam I liked him and he liked me but now I only think but I am not so sure if he is just simply a Collin, a man that likes me but I don't like him.

It is spring break, I spent my whole week at my farm without internet, withoutbeing totally bored thinking how stupid my life seems right now , and now what I am saying has totally no sense. Ok could someone tell me WTF is happening?

This week I have only talked to Penny, lala and Wendy, also one of the twins and mary. Tom is not connected so I haven't been able to talk to him and Elizabeth has no FB or MSN and I am pretty shy to call her, LOL. O well life keeps moving on and I am really sorry I haven't been able to write that often as I should.

XOXO

ANGELA

PD:

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

30 0f March 2010 9:08PM

sorry for not writing in a long time, I have been really busy with rehearsal, homework, basketball, leadership, MUN and more, I know I have many activities and they are taking all my energy, but I am now in spring break and that makes me happy, Nothing interesting, just friends being nice with me, and I have only talked to Wendy and lala, and they are going to make me go to my Finca. Ok my life is not interesting but it is not boring. Adam is no longer adam it was just a dream, FYI he is my true love and whenever I call someone like that it is because he is Adam. Well nothing new, nothing old nothing out of sight and nothing to reveal.

Just a question, how do you know when you are in love???

XOXO

ANGELA

18 of March 2010 10:33 PM

Horrible day, I got Bullied physically and mentally, I don't want to go to the game tomorrow. I am not letting them put me down, I am going to make myself Understood I DONT CARE WHAT YOU DO. I am going to tell you something, If you are being a bullied by someone you should know the steps, First stop them in a decent way. Then talk to the nearest adult, and if the still show violence you go to the director. You have two know the conditions, 1. DONT CARE IF SOMEONE CALLS YOU A TELLER, cause you are defending your dignity and I am sure you have people backing you up, you only need one true friend that gets you, like Wendy and Susan. 2. If you are afraid they will mistreat you again, accuse them again until they understand you are not putting to this.

You know those stupid girls can kiss my ass cause I am not letting them put me down. They are only jealous cause they know I am better than them, and I am happy while they are not. Dude Bullies have only one problem and that is

1. NO LIFE

2. NO HOBBIES

3. NO REAL FRIENDS

So if you are being bullied you just have to know one thing, be strong and don't let them hurt you. If they think they can do anything to make you feel like dirt, just remember sometimes you have to treat people like dirt, but you know something else do it with respect. You have something they lost years ago, your dignity. Be mean but don't be like them because those are the ones that when you are older, will come near and ask you for a favor because they did not achieve anything in life.

XOXO

ANGELA

March 17 2010 12:45 PM

Yes it is indeed pretty early for writting in todays entry but I am really bored in Careers class and I prefer writting about me Skirt day, rather than sitting and expecting for one of my friends to do something funny so that this class is not that stressing. I was supposed to have Rehearsal today, Dance rehearsal, meaning I am screwed. I have the Basket semifinals and that is the reason I have a skirt. People are whisiling at me and sayng how gilry I look today. I hate skirts is the only thing I say to them whenever I hear something like that. It is uncomfortable but I feel pretty for some reason. Today is big, if we dont win we will not go to finals and All the rehearsal I went to because of basket would have been in vain.

Friends, friends, friends. What can I say about them today? Susan was pretty ghappy to see me in a skirt and Lala was like Ok I dont care. The twins, bothered me all day long. Wendy and Elizabeth where like wow you look cute. The rest where like uuuulala They should know me better.

Well I have to start doing my workshop before the miss gets mad at me and That is not very nice. PD I saw nice birds today so I give this day a B +.

XOXO
ANGLEA
pd2:Maybe Adam noticed how pretty I looked on my skirt. For today he is Adam.

March 16 2010 10:13 PM

OK day. A- I would say. Woke up and had the sensation, this is going to be the worst day ever. I got early to school and while I was entering my dads classroom, Mister H called me. I thought I got on trouble because I did not go to Yesterdays After school for retaking the test. He only needed me to catch up in something I did not do because I changed from normal math to Pre-AP, and he told me I could do the Test in thursday. I slept in my dads room for a while and then went to PE. nothing interesting happened, except that I saw Michael his twin Mark, Matthew, Jason, Tom and another bunch of guy friends playing street basketball, and I thought I could kick their butts at basket at any time. Then Break did ten thousand things, then Socials which was pretty cool cause I could participate, and he told me I was right. Break and then BIO, I got 2 fours today so I am doing excellent because in my school, they have a 4.0 scale. I went to see Canadian Universities, again my parents want me to stay here. Lunch, which was pretty horrible. Finally I had Math and had a good time as always with my seat Neighbor, Brandon.

I stayed after school for practice and the coach told me we have to come in formal dress code tomorrow to school cause we have a game. That means a skirt. I haven't used a Skirt since years, and I have never used the schools skirt. I hope I don't look stupid in it. Well I came home, and finally I did homework heard music, go for a walk read Judy Blume and nothing else, here I am again writing to people that may be reading this but I really don't know cause I really don't care. Life is complex and sometimes it is better to leave it complex.

XOXO

ANGLEA

15 of March 2010 10:12 PM

Awful day, music was horrible we didn't do anything and I could not print my project. Then Socials where everyone started acting like Morons and started thinking that einstein was a philosopher, not a scientist. Bio, couldn't print my work so I got in troubles. Lunch just talked about life and Michael a friend of mine, started bothering me with Tom again. Computers and careers was pretty boring. The one thing that made me happy today was rehearsal, god that was such a great afternoon, I had fun with my friends, sang my lines and looked like a pro. Lala told me to pursue a theatrical mayor and career but my parents will not leave me go out of the country, to the USA to go to Columbia and graduate in foreign affairs and theater, unless I get a scholarship, which is almost impossible.

ife goes on as usual, my grammar is worse every day, I know, and unless a miracle happens I know that tomorrow Tom will not speak to me, my classes will be long and Painful, specially Socials which is totally sucking right now and all the kids hate me because I know more than them. I know I will have probably have forgotten my Math homework and wait until wednesday for a rehearsal to make my week. Good news are two, first rehearsals of all week long start on monday and I started reading Its not the end of the world, by Judy Bloom, and maybe I will do what Karen does, saying that I give this day a complete C. It sucked by at least rehearsal got me happy.

XOXO

ANGELA

14 de Marzo 2010 9:18 pm

You know how idiotic my weekend was, absolutely Idiotic. Scouts on saturday, I discovered how much I suck in Culinary, because I was doing my lunch, Macaroni and cheese, and you know something? You have to take out the water before putting the cheese. Result, a total mess. At least the scout corner was a total success, Eagles Part was so clean our leaders where impressed. We went out of school for a yoga class, turns out I didn't have permission my mom got mad and I am grounded for two weeks, including not staying after 3:30 in school for the musical rehearsal. This means, I am screwed. Good thing I have a plan, I am going to change my two weeks of not going, for a month without TV, I prefer ten thousand time going to rehearsal that being bored home watching TV. Today I Slept all day long and Tom called me a couple times so that we could finish a work we had to do for tomorrow. It was pretty boring, today I also watched lots of movies including Wendy's favorite, the Goofy movie, Dads favorite, SHARK, pretty disgusting and my favorite National treasure 2. You know this weekend sucked but at least Tomorrow is going to be a brand new day, full of new ideas and fun and I hope that Adam, My dreamed boy (which I have no idea who he is in the real world) Will come out to light and make my week better than last one.

You know something, On friday I went to an Orphanage home and the kids where so cute, Lala Tom, Penny and Jason went with me and the kids didn't stop calling us Mom or dad. At the end when we where leaving they started to cry, Including Jason who I thought had no feelings at all.This was all thanks to a girl named Bianca who didn't left him in the whole afternoon and called him dad. It was so cute, I had something similar with a kid named Nicholas and a girl named Valentina. They where so nice and I felt bad leaving them there. I hope they find the good family they deserve.

Well life goes on and surprises never stop coming, see you tomorrow and have a good night. LOL

11 of march 2010

Today was the most horrible day in history. My classes where boring, and my friends ignored my all day long. what the HELL. I showed Wendy the blog and she liked it. Dance rehearsals sucked and today en PE i got hit by ten thousand balls that almost killed me. Everyone was like OMG you look weird with the bandages and how did I feel. Universities went to my school and I came late to class because the Fun I was having it was kinda cool and the theater program where great although my parents only let me be Colombians next president. LOL

I am tired and lost I have no one to trust. But life sucks sometimes and the signals you get from god are confusing.

XOXO

Anglea

March 9 2010 8:48

You know what really sucks?????? easy, leaving home to go to school with the hope that you will have a great day and as soon as you are going down to your first class with your best friends you fell down and sprint your toe. Then you do what you learn in first aids class see the toe and check if you really need to go to the infirmary and you decide to give it the class. Then the pain becomes like shit and you go running to the nurse, fell down and the sprint becomes a little bigger. The infirmary nurse tells you to go to the doctor and you wait for your driver for about 3 hours in the nurse alone cause no one knows you are there. When they pick you up there is traffic to get to your house. You arrive and then wait two hours in pain for your mom to arrive, she arrives we go to the doctor and you move through the whole damn hospital in a wheelchair just to find out you didn't have anything wrong it is just a small sprint on your toe.

You know the good things you received this day, your friends called to ask you how where you feeling and your mom gives you an Itunes card of 10 dollars so that you buy your favorite music. You spent 5 bucks in the music of your favorite singer or show (glee) and then you do long homework. Then you find yourself writing in your blog having fun telling the people of the world how horrible your day was as like you where someone else, a third person. If that ever happens to you well you may now know how I felt today. Not completely stressed out and depressed specially cause today was my favorite day of the week meaning classes, but also I felt warm knowing that my friends care about me. Yeah that is a totally true story dear.

XOXO

Anglea

March the 8

Hey whats up???? My life went good today. For the first time in days I feel good again about myself. My profile in Facebook I had to find you, Tell you I need you from Coldplay. IDK what I putted that. It was a very interesting day today. I had math, In which we had a muffin party because of the map testing, I new the secret ingredient and I won another muffin. My secret I prepare does same muffins at home lol. Then PE and we played badminton, I really suck at it. I fainted and woke up in the gym with ten thousand people around me, who knows what happened. Then Socials which was completely suck and then BIO in which I had allot of fun for some stupid reason. The the two most wonderful hours of dance and music rehearsal for the Musical. The one thing that makes me joyful the one thing that is always there when I feel stressed is that musical and it will be in around a month. The home, homework and here I am. I know I am really boring person, but I have Tom, Wendy and Lala to have fun.O well If life continues and It is totally normal for someone to write in this blog cause It so relaxing to know that there is someone there that is reading your life but he really doesn't know anything about you and you feel good again.

XOXO

ANGELA

6 of March 2010 8:52

Maybe I will not write everyday but still it would be useful for me, My Name is Angela Bullock, my friends call me Angie, normal sophomore with personality problems and PMS jajaja LOL. My best friends are Lala and Tom, also Wendy, Susan, Emily, penny and Jason. I had recently a fight with Tom I don't know why but we are fine now. Tomorrow I am going to go to Wendy's house so that we can do the MTV Night, I hope we win and yes today is saturday and I have tons of HW to do. Nothing interesting happened but still it is nice for someone to notice you. You will understand later.

XOXO

Angela