July the 27 of 2010 6:20 PM

Life can be such a mess when you talk about beauty, I went to take a picture at the mall today for my parents I discovered how ugly I am in the outside I felt bad for the whole day when suddenly it hit me.

Why is beauty so overrated, why do you have to be thin and tall to be pretty. Am I really as ugly as I think I am. Everyone knows I am a feminist, but is it against my belief wanting to feel pretty? although maybe it is against it when you try comparing yourself to those mannequins made by men to try to sell beauty products by degrading women, making them feel ugly to buy them.

I saw a store while taking the picture saying how can a women loose weight by buying their products. Maybe my parents are right and you are beautiful as you feel inside. The thing is that, watching all the other girls at school with fancy clothes and so skinny that they actually make you feel really bad.

When I was little and my parents bought me new clothes, I used to go to school with them and feel like everyone was envious of me cause I was so pretty and elegant. Even when I was older I used to enter school feeling as if every guy had to turn twice to watch me. Now I feel like a little piece of nothing that dresses herself as a piñata and is fat and gross.

Where has this girl gone, where the hell have I done t the Idea that I am pretty no matter what I wear or how I walk. Maybe Beauty is inside me and If I feel it then I am pretty. Maybe I should listen to the feminism, beauty is not being thin and having the most elegant clothes and the hair that blows with the wind.

I am beautiful maybe not like those man made models, but like a gaby made one, and If I feel pretty then I am pretty and no one is going to say me the contrary.

XOXO

ANGELA