August the 28 2010 6:10 pm

Its saturday and I have to read two gigantic books for monday. They are my type, romantic but with a touch of history and enchantment. I love the knighthood stories all that chivalry and romance, I now know why Don Quijote wanted to become one. I wish to be one of the ladies for whom this gentlemen fight for it would be so cool but sad because they may die.

Yesterday I had a killer day, I had class and then went to Toms house until 4 so that we could go to Melanie's house and get ready for Tina's party. At her house we danced ate and said what we where going to do at the party which I couldn't attend because my parents where going mad about me being out at such hours of the night.

I did arrived to the party but they told Tom he had to leave the car outside, parked on the street and he was insecure about it so he said he would stay in the car. All our friends left and I stayed with him because I know he doesn't like to be left alone, although he told me it was ok if I left. While I was helping him park I was telling him to be careful with a car right behind him and he said hi didn't drive like Matt. I told him that Matt is a great driver and he told me I thought that just because I liked him. I thought he was kidding at the beginning but I then realize he was serious. I told him it wasn't true, yes he is nice but not my type, and that I don't like anyone at this moment. He asked me if I was sure and I obviously told him that yes.

I was shocked about this, is that why July has been telling me that I look pretty just because I want to attract someones attention, do I look like someone that wants Matt's attention?. Once again he is a nice guy and he is quite a gentleman which makes me laugh when I feel sad but I only see him as a good friend of mine. Do I look like someone is attracted to him?am I giving him wings when I am not supposed to? or maybe although Im not sure about it, I raised someone's jealousy by being close to him and that person started the rumors.

You can never know, because on High School specially if you are on my High School everyone thinks they have the right to bother you, invent rumors about you, and even think they have the right to destroy your friendships without asking.

I am still confused on what Tom said last night but when your sixteen, most of the things your friends tell you are confusing.

XOXO

ANGELA